Changes.

   So it was my birthday some days ago. So very strange, because I wasn't expecting it to be this nice and... different. I thought being away from home, family and friends will be hard and I will feel sad. At least that was how I was feeling like a week before my birthday. Also, the exam in the morning pf my B-day wasn't helping AT ALL. But don't judge the day without the evening. Everything was great, The Boy was super nice and everything was just amazing. Despite the fact, that another exam is like in 2 days from today, and I am feeling like I am going crazy (I think I am not only feeling, but I am actually going crazy). I was thinking it will be hard, but I wasn't expecting it will be this hard. This effing barrier of the language. This stress just kills me. And the worst part is that I can't actually ask for any pitty from others, because I was the one who chose to study here. Who chose to study in this language. Mah.

   But after my birthday everything has changed. Even maybe before. To wake up at 7am on Saturday morning? Me? Are you kidding me? Well, not anymore. Trying to figure out this ryth of my days, because it is hard for me to concentrate during the day, and in the evening I am starting to think "nooo i wasted another day." Or at least I was thinking it before I changed my point of view. Right now I just dont think about failure, that can happen, and so. At least I tried. I know I will found a work when I am back after my vacation, so I am not worried about that also. 

   I am feeling that my life will get better, even if I have to pass one million exams in one month. I can do it, right.

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