Che confusione...

   Sara' perche ti amo.
   I am so lost I don't even remember when I was lost this much before. Trying to figure out my life. Try to make good decisions... But it seems that pas 38 hours were full of crazyness and reaaaally bad ones. Of course, at the end it all ended good. Well, maybe not for all. But still. I don't know, should I feel special because many people loose their memory when they are with me, or should I feel really bad.
I asked for one, I got two and un po piu... Life is like a complete mess at the moment. And I have to concentrate my thoughts on other things, because otherwise I will be screwed, and this is not what I want at all.

Arrivederci.

Rain of Confetti.

I feel inspired for like 5 minutes and then it's gone.

Cherry Blossom.

   Spring should bring new beggining, isn't it? As much as I want to believe in this - it's very hard. All I see everyday is fake faces and fake emotions. You are always scared to leave the table first, because you know - they will talk about you. Even though, you know they already do. There some voices in the house that makes me nervous. But the world is all about the voices. So can you here me even when you don't see me?

   To feel something is the greatest gift of all. To feel happy, to feel loved, to feel important, to feel in the right place on the right time... Sometimes by wrong people or wrong situations. But this makes us who we are, right? Or left? :) And all the time you have to choose. How to communicate, what to say and what not to, to hide or to show off. A little bit of everything. 

Ma in concluso sono felice'. Penso DI si' :)

 

Stop.

   Sometimes I just want to stop/skip/delete a scene from life. Too bad it is impossible. To bad I can not do anything right now to make them feel better and because of that I am feeling that too. Never felt so desperate and powerless...

   What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, huh?

Piano Piano.

 

  Press play don't press pause. Life is beautiful! Since I moved my living place, and now my lovely home is Italy, I decided to start to write in English, since it is a language which is understandable for everyone (well maybe not italians...no offence haha).

  So my life is great! Despite that stress which has been following me the whole week. But all stuff seems to be solvable, so tonight I am going to RELAX. Finally some party is coming to my life. Finally I will talk in another language than italian! I am so happy you guys can't even imagine. 

  The sun is shining here like it's summer in Lithuania. Soon I will go to get some tan! Because right now I feel like I am a white pigeon in the sea of dark ones. No fun. 

   The atmosphere at home is getting better every day, I think we are finally starting to like each other! How fun is that??? I think we finally will get a long. The most important thing, when you live with boys is to tell straight what you like and what you don't like. Because by showing them without saying is not going to work... 

   Even though, my head is currently a terrible place to be, I feel that everything is going to change very soon. As my beloved said to me today "Nothing will surprise me anymore. I am happy that everyday you receive more and more challenges and that you are able to solve them. Proud of you girl!"

  And I found love for sports again, can't describe how good it feels to do it! Every day. Can't believe I am actually started to do them when I said I will. My will sense is getting stronger as I see hehe.

  This city for me will always be a city which talkes for himself. With the smell of strong coffee and freshly baked buns. With parties and songs. WIth people and places. And since three weeks - with efing hard studies and italian language all along. 

   But well. Life is beautiful, isn't it?   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1MxNGzTKQQo&list=WLO70mkf0pY-ZvtcGNB9Kp5fGPecbtlMsi